A Little Bit Blah

I’m in a funk today … It’s not the deployment, I don’t think – it’s more like … Well, my back hurts a lot today – I took some Tylenol Arthritis last night, so I guess I am due for some more. And I’m HOT lol … I need to clean (desperately!!) but I don’t feel like it, so the house depresses me. I need to mow the backyard but it’s SO HOT out. Ugh, need to pack and bring some boxes up to storage. Need to call ERA and get the (CLEAN) house on the market to rent.

I’m in a super “I want summer over” mood. I’m ready for fall! And apparently, Xander’s ready for Christmas because he just finished watching “Rudolph and the Island of Misfit Toys” (his choice) and now he’s eating lunch (sorta) and watching “Polar Express” (again, his choice). Luckily, August is going really fast. Next month is my Dad’s birthday and then my birthday. I want to do something cool for my birthday. This will be the 2nd year in a row without Alan. And, while I loved the cake and having my parents and Xander help me celebrate – I miss having friends around. Parties were always HUGE in Rota …

I’m off …

FYI

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Odd Thoughts

I hate to admit it … but aside from the fact that my husband puts his life on the line to fight in a war … BEFORE he actually GETS to the war I am kinda jealous of his life. He’s in limbo right now, er, training as they call it. Before he ships out to ‘the sandbox’ as us military wives like to refer to it as. He gets to hang out with our friends that we met while in Rota – without Xander. Gets to go out to eat whenever and whatever he wants – without Xander. (Getting my drift yet?). Don’t get me wrong .. I LOVE OUR SON!! I just would like some ‘me’ time sometimes. I’m always home (or out) with him. 24/7. I know that’s part of the whole “MOM” job description, but sometimes I’d just like OUT! That feeling is completely magnified when you-know-who is deployed. I know thousands of military wives do it – and I know they complain (whether loud and clear like I seem to do on a daily basis, or to their personal journals far away from prying eyes of the internetz). Either way … I’m just sayin’ …. I’d like to get my ears re-pierced (like, at a piercing parlor, not the Piercing Pagoda). I’d like to see Harry Potter, Hairspray, that new horror flick w/that one guy in that room (?!) … I’d like to get a pedicure and a massage (my dear Lord, my back HURTS!!!!!!!) … When Alan was here he wasn’t really HERE because his mind was already THERE. I’d get “The Look” when I told him I was going to Wal-Mart (or the craft store) … ALONE … It wasn’t a mad look, it was more of a hurt look … which in turn made me sad. Sad for wanting to be away I suppose. Blah … the contacts are about done for tonight. It’s been a long, long day.

I plan on putting everything on Jesus tomorrow. We (Xander and I) are joining our friends in checking out a new church. I need to put everything on Him more often I suppose. Then I wouldn’t feel as crappy.

Days, Hours, Minutes

Bedtime comes so fast now … I’m not complaining – don’t get me wrong here, just worth mentioning. The past 2 days have FLOWN by, which is wonderful (I must thank my friend for all she’s doing to keep Xander and I busy, you know who you are!) Even on the days that we don’t get out of the house for more then a little bit to run errands the days go by quick. The house is neat (thanks Mom!) and slowly being packed (I have enough time to organize and pack, not just throw things into boxes). The past 2 days Xander has gone to bed really easily (which I of course appreciate). My creative juices are flowing around my brain and I have so many projects in mind I don’t even know WHERE to start! My item on eBay is actually being BID on which is super DUPER exciting! I’ve never sold anything on eBay before, and I figured I would start with all the candle goods that are taking up a crazy amount of space in my closet. All in all it’s been a good couple days. Nice.

A Little Cold

I keep messing with the air conditioning. I’m trying to find a happy medium between “I’m Effin’ COLD” and “Whew! It’s HOT in here!” … The problem is, when I turn the air colder it’s at the end of a cleaning spree and I hit the air as I’m walking into the computer room to sit on the ol’ass for a minute. A minute turns into a half hour as I find more and more military blogs to read (I have a search on Google going) and I lose myself in CinCHouse for a moment. I then realize that I’m COLD and I get up to adjust the air and I see something that needs to be done (or it’s time to reboot the laundry. that never seems to end. ever.) and I get working again, only to realize that I’m now HOT. Blah. Hubby is trying to get Toddler to bed and Toddler doesn’t want to hear it. Except that, only 2 hours ago, Toddler was falling asleep on the couch. Silly Toddler. Just go to SLEEP!! I wasn’t hungry when I made Hubby dinner earlier (we’re out of things I feel like cooking, so tonight was Chef Boy-Ar-Dee … poor hubby …). I’m hungry NOW though of course – so I’m thinking of hitting Taco Bell. Not that my checkbook can handle it – nor my ass. Oh well … he’s leaving soon, so might as well spend it now, right? I saved soooo much money last time he was gone, lol … Again, poor hubby! You deploy to Iraq for 6 months and come back home to a wife who has lost interest in cooking and serves you fast food or Chef-Boy-Ar-Dee every night. He’s not gonna wanna come home next time! (He’s already got chocolate cheesecake in mind … sheesh)

Well, it’s hot again, and I have to figure out what Chalupa I want to order. Cheers!

Zenlike

I need to find my inner Zen … How do I do that? The wine just makes me sleepy ….